Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mother's Day

First off let me say Happy Mother's Day to those of you who read my blog. :)




I am going to be honest here so if you don't want to keep reading because I am going to be real honest here-then don't read. You won't hurt my feelings one bit.





I hate mother's day! I mean it! For the past 4 years I can't stand it! I know I shouldn't let it bother me but it does. I "fake" for my kids since well I am a mother but really-I would just love to ignore the whole thing. Since losing(I hate that phrase-she isn't lost-I know where she is but ok whatever@@) my Mom I just don't like it. I miss her. I know that it is natural, I know that it isn't fair & no one said it would be(one of my faves to say) but still it SUCKS!!!!!!!! I know I can still honor her but and this is my issue I just feel cheated! I know it sounds silly-heck it sounds silly when I say it outloud to myself but I still feel it. So there. I just have to get out! I am wrestling with some stuff and this is what happens right now. So-I am going to bed so I can wake in the morning and see what nice things my kids have done for me-Lonnie gave me my gift on Friday-a nice red planter with tulips and a card and I will smile and know that they love me and that I will get through the day.


Happy Mother's Day Mom-I miss you!

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4 comments:

Conny said...

(((((((((((((BJ))))))))))))

De'Etta @ Choosing Joy said...

{{{{Bobbie Jo}}}} I was thinking of you this a.m. There are no easy or right answers.

BTW - if I have my screen in "minimize" the text is perfect.

Blessed Beyond said...

Hugs to you!!! I'm sorry!!

Renee said...

I can understand your feelings about mother's day. This year I was finally feeling okay with it (my mom died in 97) until my dh suggested I go to church alone later in the day since I'd stayed home with a sick child while the rest of the family went to Mass. I broke into tears and told him I wasn't going to church; all I would have done is sat there and cried.
So I don't have any answers but I do know that I don't love the day either

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